Determined, but discouraged.

I have been staring at this computer for four solid days. I've barely eaten, showered once and have been outside only to let my dog out. Why? Because that's what "rock stars" do when they want to be "rock stars". haha... I've been working! (Gasp!) Booking is the most difficult thing for me to do, because I absolutely hate it. Finding the venues in the cities that you are passing through at certain times and then doing your best to be honest with the clubs in saying "hey, I probably wont draw all that well because I've never played your city before, but I'm really gonna bust my ass in an effort to put asses in your seats, money in your till and make you love me by the end of the night". It's exhausting, I must admit.

The thing is... It's HARD to get people to show up to all of your shows. People have lives, responsibilities, kids, OTHER PLANS! So, although you bust your ass and try like hell to get the word out, you spend money on promotion and stare at a computer trying to meet people in new cities, sometimes, you end up playing to the bartender and sleeping in the car cuz you didn't make enough money to even pay your bar tab, let alone for a hotel.

I don't mind sleeping in the car, but it really breaks my heart to play in a new place and no one shows up. It's not like I didn't try to get people there, but how on earth do you get people to go from "yeah, I'll be there" to actually getting their asses showered and ready, put them in the car, drive them there and then get them through the doors?

So, on that note... I just want to ask you guys for some help... if you see that I'm coming to your city, can you help me promote by telling your friends? Hanging a poster? Maybe... come to the show and bring someone with you? If you have any ideas for promotion that you want to try out, or if you wanna dance like a monkey on the corner of the busy streets and shout "Come see Jessi Lynn at __________", I welcome your enthusiasm (but don't send me loads of suggestions that just add to my pile of things to do, I can't be on every street corner, oooh... that could be a whole other career, lol).

I'm not "too good" to admit that I can't do this all by myself, I don't want pity, I just want help!

Being a "rock star" is really not all that "cool" until you step foot on stage, but the rest of the "uncool" stuff is what it takes to get you to that stage.

And that.. is all my bitching for today. Oh... and Happy St Patty's Day... I just realized that today is a Holiday. Damn. I need a green beer.

Hallar!